Good morning guys Happy New Year's Eve, just a little reminder to give ourselves some grace, l trust this will help someone as we can get caught up in doing this exact thing without realizing.
The emotional fatigue of monitoring ourselves.
There is a quiet kind of tiredness that does not come from doing too much.
It comes from watching yourself constantly.
From tracking your tone.
From measuring your reactions.
From thinking about how you come across before you let yourself respond.
From holding an internal mirror up all day long and never putting it down.
You are not careless.
You are not unaware.
You are not impulsive.
You are careful. You are thoughtful. You are emotionally aware.
And you are exhausted.
Monitoring yourself all the time looks responsible on the outside.
You pause before speaking. You choose your words carefully. You notice how others are feeling and adjust accordingly. You manage your reactions so situations stay smooth. You try not to be too much, too intense, too reactive, too inconvenient.
This level of self awareness is often praised. But over time, it creates emotional fatigue.