In the quiet of the night, I find solace
In the rhythm of my feet as they move to the beat
To heal I dance, letting go of my worries
Letting the music wash over me like a gentle breeze
But even as I dance, I know
That the pain I feel runs deep
It lurks in the shadows of my mind
Waiting to surface when I least expect it
So I escape, into the arms of sleep
Where dreams become my reality
And for a moment, I am free
Free from the weight of the world on my shoulders
I sleep a lot, seeking refuge
In the soft embrace of the night
Hoping that when I wake, things will be different
That the demons inside me will have disappeared
But reality has a way of creeping back in
The harsh light of day shining on my vulnerabilities
Revealing the cracks in my facade
And the scars that line my heart
To be happy, I read a lot
Losing myself in the pages of a book
Finding peace in the words of others
Their stories becoming my own
But even as I read, I know
That happiness is fleeting
That the joy I feel is only temporary
And that eventually, I will have to face the world again
So I turn to writing, my pen dancing across the page
Trying to put into words the turmoil inside me
But often the words fall short
Leaving me frustrated and alone
I am bad at expressing myself
The emotions swirling inside me like a storm
Threatening to overwhelm me at any moment
Leaving me gasping for air in a sea of feelings
I am an overthinker, my mind racing
Trying to make sense of the chaos
But it never works, the pieces never quite fitting together
Leaving me feeling lost and confused
I am emotionally unstable
The slightest things setting me off
Sending me spiraling into darkness
And pushing me further from the light
But still, I dance
And I sleep
And I read
And I write
Hoping that one day
I will find peace
That the wounds inside me will heal
And that the words left unsaid
Will find their way out
Into the world, and into the light