The solution to my biggest struggle

Apr '22 in Other

We, me and someone I had a long conversation with recently, both have the qualities necessary for success: Discipline, motivation, intelligence... We're both a similar age with similar goals. But he seemed to live up to his full potential while I felt like every day was a new headache.

𝗪𝗵𝘆? 𝗕𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝘄𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗜 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁: 𝗥𝗼𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗹𝗮𝗿𝗶𝘁𝘆.

Let's look into both.

The first thing is simpler.

He has a realistic routine he follows week in and week out. I sort of wing it every time.

So I'm also starting to follow a sustainable routine that will hopefully enable me to reach my creative dreams without neglecting family or education.

𝗡𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝗲, 𝗶𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗼 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗶𝘁, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗮𝘀 𝗶𝗳 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱. 𝗢𝗿 𝗮𝘁 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘁𝘀 𝗜 𝗱𝗼.

While I had goals and a vague idea of how to get there, he had a humble conviction that made me a little jealous.

While I struggled to answer the same question (Money? Legacy? Love...?), he could easily name his life's purpose.

And so on.

The reason for my persistent doubt, constant fear and challenging emotions was simple: I lacked clarity.

Of course, something that came so naturally to him couldn't be copied by me in the same way.

𝗜𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗜 𝗳𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗮 𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻: 𝗔𝗿𝘁𝗶𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹 𝗖𝗹𝗮𝗿𝗶𝘁𝘆.

I took a few days to think, really think.

𝙄 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙨 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙄 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢 𝙖 𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙛𝙪𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙚.

Is it flawed? Heck yes!

Did I have to solve lots of imaginary problems to convince myself? Absolutely!

Can I summarize my future in one sentence? No, but I can describe it in lots of sentences. Which is better than before, when I had no sentences at all.

𝗦𝗼 𝗜 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝘁𝗲 𝗮 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘁𝘁𝘆 𝗹𝗮𝗿𝗴𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗰𝘂𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝘂𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝘃𝗶𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻. 𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗮 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗰𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗳𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗹𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗳𝗹𝗲𝘅𝗶𝗯𝗶𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲.

And that's it, that's my handbook.

𝗛𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗼 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗱, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗿𝘂𝗻𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗹 𝗜 𝗵𝗶𝘁 𝗮 𝘄𝗮𝗹𝗹.

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