You want to be better on camera, but watching yourself back makes your skin crawl. Not a small thing to admit, and you are nowhere near alone.
There is an old line about public speaking being people's biggest fear, worse than dying. The modern version is worse. Not standing up in a room, watching your own face played back on a screen. Presenting live, most people push through. Seeing themselves on video, most would rather do anything else.
That discomfort is why most people never start, and why the ones who do get noticed.
I have coached confidence and presenting for thirty years, live, in twenty five countries, and now in front of half a million people online. Not because I do not feel awkward on camera. Because I have done it enough times that awkward stopped being the point.
Join free, and go from filming things you never post, to posting your first go and finding nothing bad happens. That is where confidence comes from. Not feeling ready. Doing it once, somewhere safe to.