Your body feels dense, heavy, and tingling, almost like a low‑level vibration. Meanwhile, the “you” seems higher, lighter, and extremely fast — like a silent, high‑pitched tingle. It’s as if you are looking at the body from a distance, yet without any actual distance. With your eyes open the experience is still noticeable, but weaker. When you close your eyes and focus, it becomes vivid and pronounced. If you focus long enough, it swallows thought entirely until thought disappears. Even though the body is present and doing things — and you are using it — it feels almost unrelated to you. It’s there, yet the “you” feels so much more expansive and all‑encompassing. You can touch your body with your own hands, but it feels like you’re witnessing the movement rather than doing it or feeling it. You watch it happen, and it’s clear that it’s not you. There is also a sense of quiet, high vibrations with a distinct but silent noise — a very high pitch that becomes stronger the deeper you are in the state. When you’re not fully in it, the vibration feels like it’s behind the experience rather than in front, yet more real than the experience itself. Your presence — the real you — can make the body‑mind more loving. It’s not the body‑mind becoming loving toward you; it’s the other way around. Imagination becomes powerful and more real. You can watch your hand move while your mind insists that you are doing it, yet you sit back and simply watch the performance. The body and mind ask how to return to this state, while you watch them do that as well. When the question “How can I stay here?” arises, there’s a sense of an obvious answer: you are always already in this state, but you’re still identified with the body‑mind. If you imagine thought as a high‑pitch noise and focus on it, you can draw yourself toward that tone, recognising it as you. Yet even that eventually fades into the background as something else being witnessed. Nothing about the body or mind is actually “you.”

I feel a heightened sense of awareness and energy when I consume marijuana, but I also experience a feeling of heaviness and a potential decrease in vibrational frequency the following day. Is this a normal occurrence?

As a researcher I can’t explain this feeling. There’s something on the other side that’s trying to get me to see it… I’m almost there.. just more!!