Self preservation? · Spiritual Rebels

Self preservation?

I am realizing a lot about myself right now. I feel I need to focus on myself, care for myself and lend my energy to myself…. not to go get attention or be gluttonous but to do intentional loving, gentle care for myself that I enjoy. I feel I am disconnected from my being or my wellness and become enmeshed in my boyfriends or certain other people’s. Like I feel for others, but only really pay attention to my feelings more when it interferes with me connecting with others feelings. I am not sure if that makes sense. Actually taking time to “recharge” or find balance… like where I care for myself and tend to myself enough where naturally I step into the world in a more balanced caring way for others AND for myself. I wonder if I put the same energy into me that I put into others, if that may naturally help me find more balance in my relationships. I am not sure how to really provide care and also have appropriate boundaries FOR myself and FOR others. I feel like I wasn’t taught appropriate emotional or even physical boundaries as an adolescent. I was thinking about “self preservation while also having selfless moments” something like that. Learning to trust my intuition is new for me and I have lately tended to obsess or be a perfectionist at times. I feel exhausted by the way I am experiencing the world. I am not sure if you guys have any perspective on what it is like to care for yourself or enjoy yourself or be kind to yourself. Anything you have to share about what it’s like or what is healthy to you would be so valuable to me right now.

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