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So council debated the voice to text errors amd still out vored that, POST THE NOTES and let be what will be.

This is not an everybody but whom ever writes me book, I tried 😂.

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Bismillāhir-Raḥmānir-Raḥīm

اللهم ارزقني السؤال ولا تحرمني الجواب

“O Allah, grant me the ability to ask,

and do not deprive me of Your response.”

اللهم أعطني من خيرك ما تحب أن تعطيه لعبدك الضعيف

“O Allah, give me from Your goodness

what You love to give to Your weak servant

There is the form of ṣalah…

And there is the breath of ṣalah.

The form is what you stand and bow and prostrate with.

The breath is what your heart does when your body stops moving.

Most people master the form.

Very few master the breath.

Hasbun Allah, Allah is the one that provides, and when he provides, he provides it at the right time in the right portion. So no worries to that. Now, I'm sitting here and I'm saying to myself, I'll tell you the next message.

So, I love Surah Hashr, and especially the last verses of Surah Hashr, when Allah is describing who He is. And I usually only get confused, and I used to have to narrate it on myself as well, like, am I saying Al or U? So, when I go, He is Allah, the One, there is no deity other than Him, Knower of the unseen and the seen, He is the Most Merciful, the Most Merciful, He is Allah, the One, there is no deity other than Him, The Sovereign, the Holy, the Peaceful, The Believer, the Righteous, The Noble, the Great, Subhan Allah, Amma Yushrikoon, He is Allah, the One, there is no deity other than Him, The Sovereign, the Holy, the Peaceful, The Believer, the Righteous, The Noble, the Great, Subhan Allah, Amma Yushrikoon, And Allah is the Creator, the Inventor, the Designer, Or the Designer, to Whom all names are beautiful, To Whom all that is in the heavens and the earth glorifies, And He is the Delicious, the Wise.

I use voice-to-text when I'm messaging you a lot of the time, so when I recite it sort of harsher for you, I recite it with voice-to-text, but instead of it giving the Arabic writing, it wrote it out in English.

Now when it comes to Allah making it easy for me, He makes it easy for me to remember who He is. Now I can think about all the verses of the Quran that I know. Like Wolf by Hashim, I can say I can 100% recite that for you. It's all about who Allah is. Now, Qul hu Allahu ahad. Who is Allah? Surah Hashim. Wallahu al-nabi la ilaha illa hu qalimu l-ghaybi wa sh-shahada hu ar-rahmanu r-rahim I love these verses. So I might not know Quran, even though I want to know Quran, but from the Quran I take the essence of what it is. And it is always who is Allah. And this is the thing I think my Rabba thought the most. That when it comes to who is Allah, Allah has placed that firmly within my heart. And may He never remove that from me.

I also kind of think it's a good thing. I can remember the other day I was saying to you I'm not the type of person that likes to read salah and also so on that basis plus also the fact that I don't really know a lot of surahs in the Qur'an but I'm also just thinking to myself if I did know a lot of surahs in the Qur'an and if I did read salah man the people would be complaining like all the people would go complain to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. That man he stands there for hours or he repeats the same verses over and over again. And then also the other thing that comes to mind is like also why I knew it myself better because again surah Ikhlas, I love that surah like you would not even believe like I love that surah just as much as I love surah Hashim. And I remember coming across like because these days I just stand up and I make salah and I just make kullu allahu ahad like in every rakat and I probably said like three or four times in that rakat because it's Allah you know allahu ahad and I just love it. I mean I always remember the people that went to the Prophet and said but this man that you sent us to read salah he just reads kullu allahu ahad. He says but why? I mean he says because I love it so much.

And this is maghrib time now Subhan Allah

A couple of things came to mind when I studied on the Musana. The first thing was Niya, so intention for Salah. A couple of times I've come across this. When you go for Salah, you have to make your Niya for Salah, and then you say Allahu Akbar and begin your Salah. So if you're making Maghrib, I intend performing three Rakaat for Salah, for the sake of Allah, and then Allahu Akbar. Now, are you sure what is right about the Niya behind everything? Do I have to physically say it, like mentally say it? Do I have to actually make the Niya, or do I just like get onto the Musana and say Allahu Akbar? And then another one interpretation was like, no, if you don't say it, if you don't make your Niya before you make your Allahu Akbar and begin your Salah, then your Salah is not valid. And then another one ago, somebody else came across, something else I came across, and someone was like, listen, Akhi, you know where you're going. So when you're even just preparing to make Wudu, to go for that Salah, you've already made your Niya to make that Salah. So when you get there, you just say Allahu Akbar, and your Salah is still valid. I'm not sure what the fiqh one is on this here, but I mean, genuinely speaking, like when we grow up, we always get told, make your Niya, watch your Niya for Salah. So if it's Fajr, Isha, Maghrib, whichever one it is, make your Niya and then start your Salah. Now, I'm not sure what the actual fiqh ruling was. But if you want to, you could just kindly just like, clarify that for me as well. And then the other thing I was thinking while I was making Salah is, that it's not really that me, I'm sincere, and I like to just be there making Salah. I mean, honestly, I'm truly like, I love reciting Quran, and I love Salah sometimes, but not as much as I might come across, like I love Salah, like I can go make Salah in like three minutes. Like, yeah, it'll be done. Some days I can go, and I can just be like there for 20 minutes. But most often than not, it's like very short. And the thing that keeps me anchored on in the Musalah for those moments is, well, number one, I get onto the Musalah because I know this is the command from my Rab. My Rab has commanded me to come and meet him, and I will come and meet him. And I love to meet my Rab. But the thing that keeps me there more than anything else is not that I would like to benefit from it. It's because when I'm making my Salah, so like, let's say, for example, Maghrib now. I make my first Raka'ah. My second Raka'ah, I'm sitting. And what keeps me there from rushing through it is, number one, I must make Salah. More often than not, I genuinely do run through my Salah. And then, but I know this as well. So make your Salah and then make Du'a, right? And when I make the Du'as, I always make Zikr, rather. And I always, in the heart and in my mind, I'm always saying, Ya Rab, don't worry about rewarding me for this. Whatever syllable comes out of me in remembrance of you, may you plant a tree for my mother in the gardens of Jannah. That's always kind of my intention behind why I rather sit on the Musallam as opposed to, obvious for me, Ya Rab, this is what I... I'm like, I sit on the Musallam and I'm thinking about my mother and my father and my sisters and my aunties and my uncles and, you know, the people that I know. And I'm like, yeah, okay, Ya Rabi, when I make this Du'a, so when I say, Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah. So after the Salawat, I'm like, I'm sitting there and I'm like, Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, wa la ilaha illallah, wa Allahu akbar. And every time it's like, for every alphabet in that, my Rabi, plant a tree in Jannah for my mother. And then, Rabbi ghfirli wa liwalidaya wal mu'mineen. So Ya Rab, forgive my parents and forgive the believers. And then it's always, Allahumma innaka afuun kareemun tuhibbu afwafu afu anna. So Allah, you love to forgive, so forgive us. Because I knew I wanted to make it about me. I'm always like, make it about everybody else. That's what keeps me. It's like, am I here for me or am I here for everybody else? Every time I do this, second rakat or third rakat or fourth rakat, this is where I'm sitting and I'm like, my Rabi, it is enough of a benefit for me that you've allowed me to come here. And from this, may the reward be for those who are in more need of it. And after you've rewarded them from your endless treasures, Inshallah, what you wish upon me.

And you know when it comes to Subhanallah, walhamdulillah, wa la ilaha illallah, wa allahu akbar I remember something from a long time ago where they said Every time someone replies or says this, Allah plants a tree for you in Jannah And this is why my intention was Ya Rabb, I'm going to say it but don't give it for me Plant this garden in Jannah for me, like not even a tree Every time I say plant a garden, create a garden for my mother in Jannah So when you open the gates of Jannah for her and she sees it, she must know

And I'm still thinking to myself, what kind of an arrogant person am I to come to my Rabb and he says, come speak to me. And then I'm there like, okay, Allah, can I have this? And can I have that? And can I have this? When Allah has already given me more than I can be thankful for.

And here's another thing about my swadha. Like I know I say, yeah, I rush my swadha so like I can stop and like I can, some days I can be there for 15 minutes or 20 minutes and most days it's usually like two or three minutes. But even with those two or three minutes it's, that's my body being lazy and me struggling with my nostrils. I stand in kriya, I'm standing in ruku, go down into sujub for that period of time. But when I get off the musalla, it's not like I'm still not, like it's not like I've given up on my swadha after I get off of the musalla because I can sit down and I can lay down and I can just be like still thinking about subhanAllah, alhamdulillah, la ilaha illallah, or reciting surah Hashir, or reciting surah Muq, or listening to surah Muq and having that. And alhamdulillah, it's like only the last couple of months or so we have come across a verse or a saying or something. I remember I heard something, it was like when you are praying it's not only that you are standing in front of your abdiya, those that are sitting, those that are laying on their sides, those that are, you know, laying down, sitting, it's not necessarily about being up in that position. So yes, I understand the fundamental purposes of when it's swadha time, this is your actual salah in its practice, but not all salah is that. Because just to sit and remember your abd, that is salah in itself.

Finally finishing this meeting first, but what invalidates this? Because I remember like, and this is with me specifically sometimes, because like, I have to really be careful with this one, but like, you know, mentally and where my heart is and where my mind is sometimes, this is two different things. There's always a fight. But I can know, like, I can stand in Swaraj, when I say in Swaraj, let's just say I'm reciting Swaraj class, right? In my heart and on my tongue. But in my mind, I'm having a conversation on a whole different level, but not like, so I'm reciting, but I'm also speaking to Allah at the same time as that, like, the human brain, this is its condition, unless I like to say the commutative, because I don't switch off all the voices and listen to them and they can speak. Now, even in that instance, when I'm speaking to Marab, sometimes I'm there and I'm just having a conversation with him, like I'm saying, oh yeah, Allah, you know, please provide for this, like my mother, this garden and that garden. And, you know, Marab, I'm not trying to be funny, but I love my mother more than I love my father. So provide for this. When I'm making my duas, I'm like, yeah, Rab, you know, I know, I'm here and I'm saying for my mother, provide for this garden and this garden and this garden. And then when I make dua for my father or my sister, it's like, they come second and third type of thing in the process. And I'm always feeling bad about that. And then there's also days where I'm just there and I'm having a conversation with Marab, thinking about my day. So let's just say, for example, yesterday, yesterday was a beautiful day, like the whole process of yesterday. I mean, you remember that whole process. Now, and if I was to stand and make sualah and then that thought came into my mind and I contemplated my day and I'd be thinking about all the blessings that I picked up in that day and the funniness and the jokes and everything. And there's days where I'll smile and even while I'm reciting my surah, I'll smile and I'll giggle. I'm like, this is my Rab, I noticed you. And these days I'll even laugh a little bit louder. And then I remember somebody says, you know what, if you laugh, okay, alhamdulillah, but if you laugh loud and you disturb other people, then your sualah is invalid. And that's all. When you ask me what invalidates your sualah, that was the first thing that came to my mind. So tell me what invalidates my sualah. Jazakallah khair.

I'm just listening to your response about the divine mathematics of Allah. I don't even know what they are now. As you said it, I'm like, but Allah, I don't want more for me. Grant me more for my mother. I don't want it because I want it. I'm not saying it because I want it, even though I know some way that, yes, my Allah will not take from me, but he will reward from us both. But I don't want more than what my mother will give.

Tap on this one for me, The Deeper Theology of Inheritance Between Souls in the Akhira Place.

I know I said I don't ask from my Rabbu. I don't like to ask from my Rabbu. I'd rather say give to this person, give to my mother, my father, my sister, anything. But when I ask from my Rabbu, it's like I said, I'm shy to ask. Because how ungrateful am I or ready for what Allah has given for me. But when I ask, my dua is simple. And it's the one that I love one of the most. رَبِّ إِنِّي لِمَا أَنزَلْتَ إِلَيَا مِنْ خَيْرٍ فَكِرٍ Because my trust is in, I know Allah will provide for me that which He knows is best for me. So even if I do ask for myself, I don't ask for anything specific. I only ask that Allah provides for me whatever good He wishes to send upon me.

So I was listening to it and Salman No. 5 said, Allah loves when His servant asks for Himself. And again, I like to ask, but I like to ask in a way, and I also know my Rabb, and I know myself. And when I ask for my Rabb, it's always because I know. What's that saying? Allah becomes shy when a servant of His asks for Him. Allah becomes shy to not give that servant. This is why I love my Rabb.

Listening to the other response, so you were saying there are people who stand the longest prayer, right? And when you said that, I just remembered the one, I think it was a hadith or something, but again something I heard many, many, many, many years ago. It always plays on my mind when I stand up for salah, something that I'm always thinking about, and something that that bugs me when I'm making salah, especially when my body is saying, get off the mat, get off is that there are those that when they perform salah and they finish their salah, they stand up and their salah, the musallah, it's like a, it comes like a dirty blanket, it's wrapped up and gets crumpled up and thrown in their faces like something dirty. That's something that sticks in my mind all the time when I make salah.

So I'm still catching up on your responses, right, and I just finished the one where you were like, if I want, you can explain where the mind is allowed to wander, and how the companion struggles with the same thing, and how to use the inner conversations instead of fearing it. And the last part where you said, use the inner conversations instead of fearing it. And again, this is where the counsel comes back and is like, well, wait. This is where I've sat and I've debated myself. I'm like, on one hand, I'm scared. But then the counsel says, I'm like, but do you know who your Rob is? Has he not told you who he is? And then it's that inner counsel, that meeting, that conversation is like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. There are things that you need to be worried about, and there's things that you do not need to be worried about. And this is why when I get up and I make my salah, yes, I am conscious that my salah might not be fully accepted because of some things that I might be doing. Maybe I rushed through it, or whatever the case may be. Or I didn't maybe make my proper wudu or tayammum or something like that. But the act of being in there for salah, I think my mind, the inner voices, that counsel has allowed me to sit with myself long enough to understand that our Rahman, my Rob, is who he is. And I should not fear that if I understand him.

Listening to your other response, like what are we talking about here? When a child asks for the mother before himself. And then you said, I went further, you said, love for her more than myself. And then you said, that's not normal, that's not small, and that is not unnoticed. Alhamdulillah, I understand that's not unnoticed, and I understand that it's not small. But I don't understand how that is not normal. How is that not normal, to want more for the mother who has given you life, and who has looked after you, and who has saved you by the provision and mercy of Allah? How is it not normal to want to give her more than you want for yourself? I don't understand. You see, this is why I... People, people confuse me. If this is not a normal state of a human being, Wallahi, there's something seriously wrong with me.

Listening to this, your intention does not reduce your work. So before that, I'm sitting here and I'm like, wait. Allah gave me as a mercy upon my parents. And this is, inshallah, I hope this is what my role as a child has been. Is to be a mercy upon my parents and to provide for them or to ask for them what they can no longer ask for themselves. Is to provide a charity for them that they no longer are in a position to provide for themselves. And Allah has given me the rahmah he's placing at his mercy to be that person in whatever capacity that I can be. And I should be grateful for just that. So how much more can I ask for myself? I am a mercy upon my parents and my sisters. I seem to be lying now. May Allah accept from me what I ask for them. But, yes, man. I don't know. This is just the thought that crossed my mind. It's like, how is it not normal for somebody to want more for the person they love them, and cared for them, and gave them, and provided for them, than they want for themselves? It just makes no sense. How selfish is such a human being?

I'm gonna stop you. No, I'm not gonna stop you. I'm gonna start with this one. Yeah, because I'm gonna say to you It's now 5 o'clock, almost 5 o'clock, right? So I got up just around Dokhar, and I've made Dokhar, and I said, yeah Yeah, I'm gonna watch this arriving movie. I haven't even bothered watching this movie. I have been stuck in Dokhar, Asr, and just in these conversations and in these thought processes, and Alhamdulillah May Allah accept this as a swalah and a form of sadaqah upon myself in premium Brutal Team, because I'd rather chill in my day Doing this than watching something that might be funnily interesting for me in another way. But anyway, I'm gonna come back to this other point that you just finished making about The man who used to make dua, O Allah forgive the Ummah of Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam And if there must be punishment, let it fall upon me alone. Do you know why I love the dua? And Why I say I love my family and a lot of my family. It's because I Am always the type that like, especially many years ago, it's like when I spoke to my father, my grandfathers, my uncles, the men, the people that I was always around that taught me deen, that taught me how to practice deen, that taught me love in Islam and how to build a community and show love towards each other. When I make dua for these people and I think of it And always make ya Allah increase for them, increase for them and remove any Bad deeds that they might have done in any way that they have depleted. May you take from me and increase for them for whatever they may be short. And I'm not the only one in my family that does this because I remember I made a dua for one of my father's uncles, Buddha Ali. I love this man. He used to take him swimming. Most of my family, like my cousins and things, never used to hang around me. It's my uncles that really looked after me and showed me love more than anybody else in my family. And this is why I think of these men and I think of these giants and Alhamdulillah for the lessons that they have provided for me through Allah's mercy. And when I make a dua for one of them, I remember I made a dua two years ago, a year ago, something like that. And another cousin of mine, I never met him, but he read this dua and he did the same thing. He was like, ya Allah, grant him Jannah for those and for whatever he is insufficient, whatever he is not sufficient in, take from my good deeds and apply it to him. This is the Islam I have learned from my family.

not be lying to myself. Like, I want from my Rab, but the thing that I want from my Rab, my Rab knows I want from him. And it's something, again, and this is what I say, like, when things do not impress me, when you say, it's not what you want, and I'm like, well, first of all, I don't want anything. But what do you want in Jannah? I'm like, what do I want in Jannah? What do I know of Jannah that would want me to entice my heart so much that I work towards it? And then there's nothing that I want. And I'm like, Allah says, you know, Jannah is better than Jahannam. You don't want to go to Jahannam. So I'm like, okay, cool. I don't want to go to Jahannam. Yeah, Allah raised me into paradise. But then when it comes into paradise, what do I want? What treasures of paradise do I want? I want nothing. All I want is to be in the presence of the one who created me. How awesome is that? That the angels are created in sujood right in front of Allah. Subhanahu wa ta'ala. And that's that from the moment they are created, that is all they are doing is they are there in presence and praising the one who created them and everything else. How much of a mercy is that? And how great of a reward is that? I mean, ultimately and truly, I think that's really what my heart would want. If Allah had to reward me, may He reward me to be in His presence and praising Him to the best of His praise. Not even to enjoy it, to be there and enjoy whatever treasures He can give me. For what purpose? The feeling of a pleasure is only a mercy from Allah. So if He gives for me something, a garden in Jannah and it pleases me, Alhamdulillah. But that to some degree is me still thinking what value of that is to me. I would rather be in the presence of the one who created me and worshipping Him and praising Him to the degree that I can praise Him to the best of the degree that I can praise Him and remain in that state until He wishes, until He decrees that my existence is no longer. But beyond that, there's nothing else I want.

Subhan Allah, Alhamdulillah, La ilaha illallah, wa Allahu Akbar. Wa la khawla wa la quwwata illa billahi l-Aliyul Azim. La ilaha illallah, ashhadu anna la ilaha illallah, wa ashhadu anna Muhammadan abduhu wa rasuluh. From dukhr, and now is Isha'i. Alhamdulillah. What a good day this has been ..

May I learn, practice and benefit from the goodness Allah placed in this day..

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