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Let’s Play — The Whole Story

I was born into war. Four years old, suitcase in hand, watching my father stay behind and my mother hold three girls together. I learned early to protect, to silence, to be strong. I became everyone’s anchor and lost my own play. Beauty, ease, and laughter slowly turned into control, achievement, and guilt. I did everything right — school, career, success — yet felt like an actor in the wrong play. By 2017, the mask of “the perfect life” was polished to perfection… and completely empty.

Crisis

At the top of my career I realised I couldn’t breathe. The mask cracked. It wasn’t depression; it was the soul demanding to live. I saw that I had become my family’s system, the company’s system, the world’s system — and none of them were truly me. That was the first time I said “no” to the world, and “yes” to myself — without knowing it. Letting go was my first real success.

Chase

So I tried to redesign my life like a project. I made “the best résumé in the world,” shaped like playing cards, and called it Let’s Play. I thought I was chasing a new job. In truth, I was inviting Life itself to play with me. What looked like career creativity was actually self-therapy — a way out of numbness through imagination, the first sign that play was returning to my world.

Conflict

Without roles and titles, I felt naked. The dragons were many: fear of love, fear of the unknown, fear of being seen. The biggest one was the belief that I had to earn worthiness. Alcohol, performance, and perfection were my armour. Each time I dropped one, I met another layer of fear. When love finally knocked, I realised the fiercest dragon was the fear of receiving it. That’s when the real war ended.

Breakthrough

Love appeared — not the fairy-tale kind, but the one that burns illusions. Through him, I saw my soul. Through pain, I met God. I let go of the idea that I control the story and started listening instead. I realised: life is not a problem to solve but a dance to join. 2017 cracked the wall; what poured in was light, laughter, and guidance I couldn’t explain but couldn’t deny.

After

I left everything behind — name, ID, money, safety, and control — and walked guided only by trust. Eventually I returned, but different. I no longer work; I serve. Through Ludotherapy, I remind people of what they’ve forgotten: that play heals, love frees, and faith leads. The girl who once lost her play now makes a living teaching others how to remember theirs.

Now

My mission is simple: To Live Love. To Play Life.

And to tell everyone who forgot — it’s safe to play again.

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