Breakthrough Story 🌬️😈✨❣️

BEFORE- I always felt everything very deeply, not being able to function in society, developing a lot anxiety, panic attacks and depression since I was a teenager. This of course kept getting fueled in school, work, the whole matrix, parents telling me it’s just time to get on with it when I opened up about the depression I experienced.

CRISIS- I experienced 3 depressions in this life and realised i can’t keep going to the doctor asking for anti- depressants and my last depression was that scary that I had thoughts of suicide.

CHASE- I then became very determined to get better in an alternative way. I sat there for days and many hours researching what helps with depression and anxiety- the message kept coming back- what helps is to meditate.🧘‍♀️

CONFLICT- I started going to local talks and meditation classes and it was very helpful and I started to feel better but what i didn’t realise was that I wasn’t self compassionate enough, still beat myself up for how I felt and not feeling good or worthy enough (not enough self- awareness/ self- love). One big thing what got stuck with me in a talk of the Buddhist Monk was when she said : “YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS” - I REALLY WANTED TO GET TO THE BOTTOM OF THAT 👌so I googled of how to become a meditation teacher, hoping I would learn everything about teaching others and understanding what that means : YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS ?🤔👌

BREAKTHROUGH- Yes 🙌 This is exactly what I got from the one week meditation teacher training course after sitting for hours in meditation and spending days in silence which I have never done before to this intensity 🤫 There was one very dark moment sitting in a meditation, where it got extremely scary and my mind was bombarding me with the most scary thoughts 😈 and then there came the moment after that : FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I was able to see very clearly that I am not my thoughts- I became the observer in that moment 👀 LIBERATION 🎉 From that day on I never experienced a depression ever since and it’s been 8 years since- Buddha calls this process: Entering the stream- once you truly have seen that you are not your thoughts 💭, you can never unsee it again 🎉..only forget (once you been to Paris, you know what it looks like)

AFTER- Of course life is still full of ups and downs, and so many difficult emotions to deal with, but how I handle it is a whole other universe. And I can do this now with self- love and compassion/ forgiveness for myself (even if not always immediately but that’s the journey). It is also so very beautiful to be able to teach others these tools, who struggle in the same way as I use to struggle and being part of raising awareness and awakening in human beings as my truest passion lies in creating a new earth 🌎✨❣️

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