Sometimes, I get lost in the noise of self-doubt, self-sabotage, and self-underestimation. I'm sure I'm no different than the next "munkee" out there trying to make it, but constantly hitting road blocks and challenges...if they're not hitting their head up against the wall. One's monkey mind can keep them from getting the focus they need to finish a task worth of any valuable finish...well...at least for them.
Call it what you will; ADHD, ADD, autism, neurodivergency... I believe it goes so much deeper than just a clinical diagnosis. As one who considers himself to be a spiritual person as well as rather "clinically challenged", it's difficult to believe that what one person ethereally possesses can be possessed by others as well given the sense of energy that can be transferred from person to person. I moreover speak context of this when it comes to the minds and states of creativity.
I titled this passage as "Remember Who You're Doing This For" because I need to remember that the work that I am doing in my life at this moment is not just for me, but for my community. There has been such inner work that I've had to do myself over the recent few years. There's been so much that I've had to come back to when it came to me; the person I was in the past, the person I strive to be amidst the chaos I've had to internally endure, the person I had to build to make sure that I can have the future I desired. The future that I desire though requires me to do work for my community, but that also requires me to do work for me... So I have to remember that I'm doing this for me, so that I can do this for my community.
I need help to manifest my community so I can manifest for my community! 💚💚💚