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My first post on here!!
Heyyyoooooo!! I’m Jessy & I can’t wait to meet you all. Welcome home! I’ll leave the light on for you always.
First post woaaaaahhh.. imma take a moment to write a simple reminder for myself as much as anyone that will be a part of this community for those moments when we inevitably forget the point of it all. At the threshold of that forgotten truth, as I’m asking questions and grasping at straws, I am ALWAYS reminded that love is the answer to everything.
I am not a professional in ANY FIELD OF STUDY, medical or otherwise. HOWEVER, I am an artist so.. same thing and you’re in good hands.
Listen. We’re all fucking winging it. Take what works and drop the rest.
Today I choose love. It took me a lot of pain and a lot of of honesty and intention and time tobe able to actually figure out the things I need to unlearn in order to hold space for the birthright of joy. Sharing my healing journey on here is both part accountability for myself, but also hope that “leaning into” all those things that make me second guess myself because the “spark” makes me nervous -instead of pulling away in safety- will be a small actionable step I can make second nature to help me along my way.
Shame is a dangerous and awful thing. Our lives intertwine with it from very early on. None of us can navigate it well unpracticed& it’s incredible how your body will physically deter you from being able to sit with and process any feelings of shame.. you felt that!?? WILD, right? Yet another reason that having a moderately pleasant (bare minimum) feeling when you think about your life must be non-negotiable. The older I grew I felt more and more lost. I’m figuring out now what makes me feel rooted, centered, grounded. Connecting with people and sharing has always been enjoyable for me but I need to learn how to let people reciprocate in our relationships more. I need to learn that asking for help is necessary often. That when I say “ no one should be doing this life thing alone” or doing everything alone, means ALSO YOU JESSY lol. Silly bitch 🥹🫶🏼🥰
Taking up the space allotted to my current earth side form and figuring out who I really am, what I really like and with which pace I want to flow through life at, is where I’m at. Pull up, it’s gonna be all love, def a lot of like, sibling-style-ball-busting and good humored roasting is the vibe if you’re down lol. I’m tryna BUILD. We have to start showing who we are so we can build communities for ourselves again. We isolate for good reason. Trust is hard and the world is dangerous. But getting to know people, even if it doesn’t end wonderfully… I feel that it’s always worth it in one way or another. I hope you feel at home here. I would really like this to be a place where we can unravel. I think ‘unravel’ is the perfect word, even if the image that comes to mind has a negative connotation. I want us to unravel, because that is not just merely an “opening” of something. We’re not spilling something or tearing apart. It is not peeking inside uninvited, or poking-prodding -pulling-YANKING until dejectedly relinquished. When you unravel something, you do it carefully-tenderly-excitedly-nervously bubbling with laser focused wonder. Many of us have unraveled gifts.. We unravel things that are complex, multifaceted joyous to behold - worth unraveling in the first place!!
I choose to love and accept myself, regardless of the phases of my life I will go through, or goals I have not yet accomplished. I will especially choose to love and accept the parts of myself I have not yet learned how to like.
as I unravel the interesting being that I am so I may meet her entirely and fall in love with her, I choose love love love and reject shame or silly human make believe things like striving for perfection as an alive thing, or various internalized scales of “worthiness” to be an alive thing..
Shame is dangerous and I refuse to bear its weight daily. Love is the answer anything you’re ashamed of can help you when you absolutely douse the whole shame with love and set it ablaze lol. People for centuries tried to change lead into gold because they subconsciously knew you could change icky feelings into love. Don’t fact check that it’s true 😆. Love is an infinite, constantly-self-renewing resource, easily transmuted from even the yuckiest of icky feelings with a little even the smallest amount of giving a hoot.
I try to remember these truths always.
I’m so happy you’re here and that you’re helping me curate this space for us all and we’re all helping eachother and making the world a better place!!
XOXO JESSY
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My first post on here!!
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35yo Boston based shortie that’s done “just getting by”.
Artist, momma, wife. I just wanna cackle all day and make my life hella magical. Come with?
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