I used to believe that one wrong move could ruin everything.
That fear grew from years of barely scraping by, trying to keep a roof over my kids’ heads, losing things faster than I could replace them, pretending I was okay when I was exhausted inside. When you’ve lived in survival mode for a long time, “not having enough” doesn’t feel like a worry — it feels like a threat.
So I played life safely. I held my breath. I didn’t take certain risks. Not because I didn’t believe in myself, but because I didn’t believe I had room to fall.
But something shifted in this new chapter of my life.
I’ve been stretched, tested, and pushed into places that feel uncomfortable… and instead of tightening into fear, I’m learning to lean into trust. Not blind trust, not magical thinking — trust in myself.
Trust that I can figure things out.
Trust that leadership doesn’t require perfection.
Trust that mistakes don’t ruin my life — they guide it.
Trust that I don’t have to hold everything together alone anymore.
I’m starting to believe there’s no “losing” if you’re willing to learn. There’s no stuck when you’re willing to move, even imperfectly. That mindset has softened my anxiety more than any “be positive” pep talk ever could.
I’m not operating from fear anymore. I’m operating from faith — faith in growth, faith in timing, faith in the person I’m becoming.
Here’s my question for you:
Have you ever played it small because you were afraid of losing something? And what would your next step look like if you believed you could learn instead of fail?
I’d love to hear your story, even if it’s just one sentence. You’re not alone in this shift. We’re all learning to walk differently now.
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Erika Bogan-Mtui
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I used to believe that one wrong move could ruin everything.
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