I played poker for 10+ years as my job. I failed. Now I know why.
- I forgot why I started. | The Story |
- I chased the graph.
- I set goals and forgot them by lunch.
- I planned but rarely executed.
- I thought planning was doing.
- I grinded hard, then studied hard. Never both.
- I procrastinated for too long.
- I made to-do lists I never finished.
- I missed deadlines and felt sorry for myself.
- I treated everything as urgent.
- I did tasks unrelated to my goals.
- I had no system.
- I learned, forgot, and relearned.
- I context-switched nonstop.
- I was jealous of winners.
- I compared myself to others.
- I never asked what was stopping me.
- I walked into the same barriers repeatedly.
- I started every day lost.
- I never reflected.
- I warmed up randomly.
- I never repeated a warm-up.
- I ignored how I felt before sessions.
- I stopped warming up.
- I let the graph define "playing well."
- I never defined my A-game.
- I never defined my B-game.
- I never defined my C-game.
- I judged myself differently every session.
- I tagged hands but ignored context.
- I played to win, not to learn.
- I let the same distractions win.
- I only saw variance when I lost.
- I never saw bad sessions coming.
- I played to recover.
- I quit early when winning.
- I played too few tables.
- I played too many tables.
- I made decisions on emotion.
- I skipped cooldowns.
- I called hand review a cooldown.
- I waited for the perfect course.
- I hoarded materials.
- I consumed more and more.
- I trusted Full Tilt.
- I trusted the wrong people.
- I failed the good ones.
- I cheated.
- I played not to lose.
- I was the best off the felt.
- I was brainless on the felt.
- I played for volume.
- I laughed at fish.
- I called regs fish.
- I studied too much.
- I implemented too little.
- I ran the wrong sims.
- I got bored with what mattered.
- I created game plans and never stuck to them.
- I listened to every coach.
- I rarely played what they said.
- I played under financial pressure.
- I played under financial pressure and got staked.
- I played under financial pressure, staked, deep in makeup.
- My study didn't feed my play.
- My play didn't feed my study.
- I treated Poker After Dark as a learning session.
- I studied sims to remember frequencies.
- I blamed variance.
- I ran bad.
- I ran good.
- I didn't run at all.
- I let my son's birth affect how I played.
- I played sleep-deprived.
- I let my daughter's birth affect how much I played.
- I cared too much about opinions of irrelevant people.
- I didn't listen to those I should have.
- I went pro too fast.
- I cashed out too big.
- I cashed out too often.
- I never played live.
- I played online too much.
- I joined too many study groups.
- I did only one public challenge.
- I burned out three times.
- I played on autopilot.
- I played for rakeback.
- I called vs check-raise bet bet all-in too often.
- I folded vs one street aggression too often.
- I was surprised by villain's action too often.
- I played regfests because of ego.
- I bumhunted too long.
- I quit.
If you want to make poker your main source of income, for the love of God, please, please, don't make my mistakes.
P.S.
I spent the last two years thinking harder about my so-called "poker career" than I ever did while playing.
Each mistake on this list became its own story. Its own lesson. Something I need to unpack.
The raw reflections are written. Now I'm turning them into something digestible. Something that might actually help someone avoid the same traps.
Why am I doing this? Honestly, I don't know. But I feel a need to share it.
So I will.
P.S.2
Which one is yours? Which one do you fix first?