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Hi there! I've been a believer for a while. However, I've endured many health challenges along the way. I'm a two time Cancer survivor and know God is my rock. I moved last year and it's been a challenge to find a Christian church or place to call home. However, I've been dealing with another health challenge that is supposedly unoperable. I know God does miracles and I know he'll heal me as he's shown me. However, I'm getting to the point of exhaustion and lack of motivation. This new challenge has physically changed me and everything seems grey at times. I know I should have hope as my hope comes from God. I just feel a sense of constant grief. Grief of being who I used to be. While also feeling lack of motivation and feeling as though I'm always in a BATTLE. I'm tired of physical health battles. I'm also learning to fully love who I am in this moment. My emotions and mind just seem to be on over drive at times. I want to get back to disciplining the mind since it continously wants to bring me down. God's word sustains. I honestly haven't had the discipline to read or pray like I use too. The desire has dwindled. I feel like I've slowly retreated in my relationship with God. Last night, I attended an amazing women's Christian event. It was encouraging to spend my time in that way. However, I've realized I need to find a church home where prayer is the main focus. Sorry for the long rant. I'm happy to be a part of a community that feels a lot and is focused on making God #1 in their lives. I know a 3 day fast will get me back on track. I just hope I start and complete it.

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