16d • General discussion
Faith
During my scribing time this morning, I was in Genesis chapter 15, the famous passage of God’s covenant with Abram. Verse 6 says, “And [Abram] believed the LORD, and [the LORD] counted it to him as righteousness,” (ESV). There is a note in my study Bible that reads on this verse, “A person’s faith or lack of it is most apparent in crises such as Abram was facing.”
A person’s faith or lack of it is most apparent in crises. I had a moment last week where I had another episode, and was overwhelmed by the frustration of being done with my body giving out on me and being so tired of getting lightheaded and having to stop what I’m doing and sit down and rest, lest I lose consciousness. I remember thinking in that moment how relatively easy it was been to stay faithful and content in my circumstances up to this point, and how my absolute trust in the goodness of God has not at all been shaken. But it has been months and we are no closer to answers. I can’t help feeling like now is when the real battle begins. Now is when my body is continually weakened and the discipline of rest sewn in with all my other goals is going to become paramount. Now is when the real test of character is going to be had. Will I continue to find joy and contentment in whatever the LORD has sought to bring me through, or will my faith waiver and allow me to begin questioning God’s goodness in my suffering? I want to vehemently declare the former, and am ready for the fight that will ensue. But I’m glad I have a community for accountability and encouragement through this process.
What is it that is testing your faith in this season?
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Faith
