Mar '25 • General discussion
I feel sucks!
After I binge, it’s as if everything spirals out of control, and I’m left trapped in a storm of emotions that I can’t escape. In the moment of eating, there’s a brief sense of escape—like I’m numbing something deep inside of me. The food fills a void, a temporary relief, and for a fleeting moment, it’s as if nothing else matters. But as soon as I stop, the guilt consumes me. I feel like I’ve lost all control, as though my own body betrayed me, and I can't help but despise myself for not being able to stop. The physical discomfort is unbearable—my stomach feels like it’s about to explode, and yet, somehow, I can’t stop thinking about it, about the fact that I’ve eaten far more than I should have. The shame wraps itself around me like a heavy cloak, suffocating me, and the mental weight that follows only deepens the sense of defeat. It’s a cycle that seems endless, one that keeps pulling me back in every time, as if this behavior has somehow come to define me. My thoughts are consumed by the fear of doing it again, by the anxiety of the aftermath, yet it doesn’t feel like I have a choice in the matter. It feels like this bingeing is no longer just an action, but something that controls my life, shaping my choices and emotions. And in the aftermath, I feel so isolated, as if no one can truly understand the turmoil inside, the constant battle between the urge to eat and the overwhelming self-loathing that follows. The guilt isn’t just for what I’ve done—it’s for who I feel like I’ve become in the process.
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I feel sucks!
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