For the past few days, I’ve been searching and seeking God in a deeper way. But God what you do I cannot force or manufacture.
After some health challenges and memory loss, I struggled with who I am. I struggled with feeling empty and like a void - that reminded me of Genesis - God still can enter those places and fill them up.
God reminded me whose I am, identity he gave me that I am reclaiming and re learning in this slow walk. He brought me back to my Creator, the Great I Am. Glory be to the most high for hovering and be right there.
Last night at revival, I went to sing and pray. Storms came, blackouts hit, and only God could hear me — that was not only enough but the best thing. I sang like I was standing right in front of Him, I did not stop, I did not look for others on the call and it felt so personal and then told no one could hear me, but the Most high did. That was the most beautiful moment: worship that didn’t need approval, just surrender.
I realized my public worship needs to match my private worship and this does not need to be immediate. God align me to your will.
Before that moment, preparing and praying.
I got to sit at His feet with my children beside me, lifting our songs to heaven. I’m not seeking His hand — I’m seeking His heart and His face. After the revival, I gave him glory and even during the revival , this was amazing experience and I could not stop praising his name.
I feel like God is birthing something new in me — a deeper hunger to sit with Him, to share His Word, to walk in His light. If you’ve felt lost or in the storm, be still. God is with you. He has a plan for your life.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” — Psalm 46:10
If you want to share anything about your journey, please do or if you are reading a chapter or something you are doing that helps you on your journey, that would be amazing.
Stay Blessed!