It hasnt been easy, i know theres times where it seems like all your efforts are meaningless, like no matter how hard you try it doesn't seem to work, thats when you cant loose faith, its on the other side, it may just take one more step to fully change everything, sometimes its just you overcomplicating things and just not allowing it to come through. Like the last step is just to relax and fully receive whats yours. Change your angle, ask a question let it go, and see what the universe brings, sometimes it gives you the pieces you need through the day, but where you paying attention kinda deal. So dont loose hope, you got this.