There is a certain kind of pain that hits so hard that it touches other areas of your body. That pain is called referred pain. You aren't falling apart and that is hard in itself to accept. There is one thing, a source, that is making it hard for you to hold yourself together. In scripture there is a verse that speaks on faith with broken confidence is like walking on a sprained ankle. Think about how much of your life is altered by that? A lot! So, when you are trying to figure out what it is that is keeping you from moving forward, go to your heart. See what your heart desires, the pain is in the desire, fix that. Maybe someone didn't treat you right in a relationship, so seek better ones from right where you are, no skipped steps.