Thank you for sharing such a raw and harrowing account. As someone who has found great value in Alan Watts' lectures, reading your family's history is deeply sobering. It serves as a necessary correction to the 'sanitized' version of history we often inherit. Your description of the overlap between spiritual exploration and the darker interests of the era (like MKUltra) is something that isn't discussed nearly enough. It’s a tragedy that your family paid the 'personal cost' for theories that Watts and others discussed with such detached intellectualism. I am particularly struck by the line in Watts' notes regarding your father. It’s a powerful reminder of how the 'great figures' of history can be blind to the wreckage they leave in their wake. If you are still looking for archival references, you might look into the work of Tom O'Neill (author of Chaos), who has done extensive research on the intersection of the 60s counterculture, psychiatrists, and MKUltra. While his focus was Manson, the 'access' to Delysid and the university networks you mentioned are central themes in his research. I hope you find the documentation you're looking for. Your story doesn't necessarily invalidate the philosophy, but it certainly demands a much more critical look at the philosopher.