I am living proof that this is true. My sexual confidence has significantly gone down since I've gained so much weight over the past few years due to physical health problems and transportation issues that keep me pretty much homebound and semi isolated. I am not proud of my body currently none of my clothing fit anymore so I had no choice but get rid of my $30,000 boutique exclusive wardrobe from my affiliate marketing days and now I'm left with nothing cute to wear that's my style or makes me feel about myself or look good . I have to have the covers on and the lights off to get intimate with my partner of a few years now - and I never did before. And I'm so self conscious that seeing myself naked while with him turns me off completely. I miss my old body and it's hard to accept this new one when it's unhealthy and contributing to killing me slowly through more health issues and chronic diseases. I have always fully enjoyed sex I've been married twice for over 10 years each and now I am experiencing these issues after a lifetime of never knowing this painful insecurity. My partner doesn't say anything bad about my body and doesn't seem to notice or at least never acknowledged the changes in my body but he has mentioned the change in how inhibited I seem to be in bed. And I just don't want to have that conversation with him it's embarrassing for me to have to tell him I've changed because I'm fat and insecure now. I don't ever want him to see me that way but that's truly how I see myself when it comes to intimacy anyways. I know better I preach and teach better but I still can't help but to not find my own body attractive anymore Idk what else to do besides change it but it's easier said than done. If I were easy I would have already. Still I feel like a hypocrite I try to practice what I preach but I can't seem to shake this one.

Currently needing to find my witnesses. I actually gained a witness today the most unlikely person but I'm grateful that this person actually saw me and gets me. It moved mountains in the energetic realms and is shifting things up for the better in this one as well. 💃🏻

I couldn't agree more with your perspective here! And well to answer your question, I've been through the wringer the past 5 years especially have been most life shattering but in the rebuilding from ashes I've gained so much growth and wisdom. I've successfully gained self control over my mindset in the midst of all the pillars of my life crumbling all begining with strokes and having to learn to live with traumatic brain injuries to my ability to drive loss of my teaching career my income my freedom independence stability and parts of my past self memories and personality. All while being a single mom with no support system whatsoever and lots of confusion memory loss executive functioning and cognitive thinking impairment also the most difficult to navigate for me has been emotional dysregulation. All of this just a year and a half after finally leaving my decade long marriage to an abusive covert narcissist (and he's still not given up trying to control and abuse me any way he can) I was well on my way to finally realizing some of my own personal lifelong dreams and worked hard to give my kids and I a much better lifestyle than my ex ever provided. Things were going so well I was on my way. Until the strokes stole everything and I had no control over anything. It all slipped through my fingers everything I worked hard to build my life has been reduced to so small. We live in poverty and rely on government assistance to survive. I am on my 4th appeal for disability now, and the only income coming in ironically is child support and that's only $595/mo Ive been doing everything within my power to heal and begin to restore a life of normalcy but it's a slow recovery process and healing from trauma is not linear it's deep layered shadow work and integration reparenting the little girl me in some cases and stepping into my divine feminine energetic frequency more and more each day. Yes I'm tired, I'm exhausted I'm worn out/burnt out the kind of fatigue that sleep can't fix it's soul tired. Ive learned a lot healed more and yet I know healing is never complete. But what I thirst for or hunger for more than anything is MYSELF- MY LIFE- MY INDEPENDENCE - MY WILD WOMAN- I AM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I SURVIVED THE UNTHINKABLE JUST TO WATCH THROUGH A WINDOW AS EVERYONE GOES ON LIVING THEIR LIVES MEANWHILE MINE SEEMS TO JUST PASS ME BY, TIME MOVES FASTER AND I CANT CATCH UP AND MY BIGGEST FEAR IS DYING WITHOUT EVER FEELING FULLY ALIVE AGAIN. IT SEEMS LIKE SUCH UNFAIR CRUEL TWIST OF FATE AND A TORTURE I DONT WISH ON ANY OTHER WOMAN WHOS WORKED SO HARD TO FIND HERSELF KNOW HERSELF LOVE HERSELF AND BECOME THE WOMAN SHE WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BECOME. I FOUND THAT MAKING MONEY TAKES MONEY THAT I DONT HAVE SO I KEEP FOCUSING ON MY FREQUENCY SO I CAN OPERATE WITHIN MY OWN NATURAL MAGIC TO COCREATE A LIFE FOR MYSELF THATS GOING TO TAKE A MIRACLE TO MANIFEST IN THIS REALITY BUT I PROMISED MYSELF NO MORE SETTLING AND I PROMISED MY KIDS THINGS WONT BE LIKE THIS FOREVER AND I WANT TO MAKE IT UP TO THEM. SO WHAT IM STARVING FOR RIGHT NOW IS A LIFE WORTH LIVING FOR.

Tbh on the mirror check one I aim for B but it usually looks more like spending a few moments in A then redirecting myself back around to B 🫤 Getting dressed is always B - because that's what I do I'm a personal style coach and self expression trumps body negativity and insecurity every single time 💃🏻 Photos always about capturing radiance B. 📸 Compliments - B but I'm working on the old polite habit of instantly returning a compliment back to them and instead trying to focus on getting more comfortable with simply receiving. 🔮