I felt like I indulged in too many carbs / cals on a recent trip. Activity fell lower and consequently sleep got bad. Evaluation on the other hand went through the roof…..I am so aware of my SANE process, I know what to look for as things falling off in some way. What that does is really recognizes how bad it feels. Not just the mental beating of slowing your goal or missing it, but also bloat and inflammation, head pounding and Armageddon level digestion. This causes me to want to “FALL BACK” to SANE….up the activity consistency, back to Whole Foods and greens, the feeling of no bloat no inflammation, no pain or problem life….Sanity! That is why I have now fallen back to feeling good!

This is the real question. So much of my success and failure has stemmed from this question. The answer has always been….. I am the person I think I really am. Insanity is not knowing. If I have a skill over others it is probably the ability to overthink at such a level I can breakdown everything into smaller parts and smaller parts etc. this is the age old blessing and curse. Meeting Joey Rojan was destiny in a way because I broke him down more and more to try to figure out how he stayed to disciplined, stoic in a way. Turns out he managed his life into four distinct things. Sleep, Activity, Nutrition, and he Evaluated those three Things against and with each other. As I breakdown the question of who am I, I breakdown who I am into 4 majors categories and then break each down to base levels. Those 4 things are Faith, Family and Friends, Financial, Fitness and all that encompasses. These four F’s I beginning to see who I truly am. SANE is that base levels of Fitness. I have broken down Financial into Cash flow planning and the Tri Peak Process. Faith, Family and Friends I am working on. Once complete, I will break those down to who I am, the Iron North Man! I see what he looks like and imagine how he feels. He is my hero version, my servant version, that movie main character. I am who I imagine myself to be. Stay SANE!

Today is a few days now of consistency on all things SANE. The clean digestion feeling, the clear head, the slight soreness, the knowing that sleep will be good, this is sanity.

Good talk with Joey and Wade tonight. I am so aware of what to do and so aware about why I don’t. Realizing a goal and a timeframe to push for 12 weeks is key. Extra tight adherence to the meal plan for a time is the way. Need to just accept it is happening and a more balancing out calories and protein approach will come as well. Time to push.

There is this time that happens when I am doing SANE at a very high level after a week or two with no real setbacks…..I feel high. I feel great, inflammation especially in the gut is non existent, sleep is magical, strength and confidence are gold. Then an urge….”Wow, fall flavors, maple cookies, pumpkin lattes, Halloween chocolate!” Nostalgia hits, I’m a kid, Charlie Brown is on, homemade warm rice crispy treats at my childhood home in the living room!!! I WANT it….. Now, I could fit something into my calories and protein, pumpkin latte with protein milk and sugar free, but I want the real deal in that moment. This is when urge surfing can really help! Urge surfing is to live in that want and wait, just wait, then wait some more, soon either you are good and realize it will take from your goal, then maybe the alternative version hits that nostalgia just nice and fun. Urge surfing can give me the pause I need to get control. Live in the want and really feeling it with forced waiting helps me to identify and label it, get that great feeling while waiting and decide on being all good or choose an alternative. Urge surf man, urge surf!!!!