I've not told my partner about the GMM, until tonight. They confronted me about an alarm they saw an alarm that I had labelled "Appearing to be Good" an activity I was doing from NMMNG. I tried to explain what the course was and why I was doing it. My partner just saw it as another way of trying to change myself, another endeavour to be perfect. They said why can't I see that trying to change is changing the person they love. We ended it on we aren't going to agree that I do this course, but I can do what I want. They said I'm looking at it like a problem to fix and I need to just let stuff go. It's like I have everything I want to tell them about why I'm doing it, what I feel it wrong with me, why I want to change and then they make points that I agree with and I just lose all direction of where I want to take the conversation I'm lost lads, I've got everything I want right in front of me and I feel like I'm pushing it away and I don't know how to stop it.

Hard Cut Off Times: I will only do my work during these times 11/26/25: 7:30am-7pm 11/27:25: 9am-10am 11/28/25: 9am-10am 11/29/25: 9am-10am 11/30/25: 9am-9:15am, 4pm-12:30am (office job) 12/01/25: 7:30am-8pm 12/02/25: 7:30am-9pm 12/03/25: 7:30am 5:30pm

Went to my son’s school (where the girl would be, the one that I cheated on my wife with) and it was smooth sailing! My wife was fine and I notice thoughts flowing like a river with no problem ! I felt grounded even with the racing thoughts. Spoke to my wife after and we were both really pleased with how we felt about the situation! Grateful for This group!

I just did a cold plunge in my bath tub. I can’t say I fully did it, but I definitely sat in cold water for about five minutes with my wife here with me then she proceeded to bathe me and that was a humbling experience, but I felt so connected and thought of what would life look like if I became paralyzed. I know a bit dramatic but definitely felt very connected to her. The plunge itself felt great and I was really trying to control my breathing. I noticed there were times where it was easier for me to breathe normal and then I would start shivering, but I would regroup and go back to regulating my breathing.

Today I woke up when I said I would worked on the 142 traits men’s workshop, did my breath work for the day and went for a run! This morning is off to a great start.