THE FLASH: LIGHT, TIME, FREQUENCY, AND BEING AWARE OF BEING AWARE By Phoenix Rylan Wilder I've been thinking about the observer effect, like something is actually observing through us. Like creation became aware of itself and by becoming aware it created itself. I can't deny that feels spiritual. It's seen and felt and known. So there has to be something greater. I call it Creator, Great Spirit, Father, Consciousness. I don't stick to one religion but I lean toward Christianity. I wouldn't call myself a Christian, I'd just say I'm a child of God. Then I thought maybe light is the essence of reality. Without light we have nothing. Light is the spectrum of colors, the rainbow, and the rainbow is where the gods travel. Like Iris, the messenger who travels on the rainbow, and we have an iris in our eyes. And the seven chakras are a rainbow too and enlightenment is seeing the light, seeing the rainbow, which is light. But that can't be all of reality because I can still sense in the dark. I can sense with my eyes closed. There are people who are blind and they experience reality fully without ever seeing light. So maybe reality is vibration, frequency. Sound is a frequency, light is a frequency. Everything vibrates at an atomic level. And everything is a mirror. Everything has positive and negative, like positive and negative ions, electricity, or feelings. Everything has a frequency of negative or positive energy. That goes into the chakras too. Low frequencies feel earthly and physical and high frequencies feel like thought and light and unseen perception. Then I get stuck on this, how does being aware of awareness work? Like experiencing being pure frequency or light. What does that have to do with morals or why we are here? Does that change the fact that I feel? If I feel does that deny that I'm aware? And if I'm aware, is there a point to reality at all or is the point just to experience and to find the awareness? I still wonder how the beginning began. How was there the concept of nothing but something, and that nothing that was actually something made a physical something. Maybe that's why they say God is within us and God is the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. Because the beginning and the end are happening all in one instance, in one flash of a moment, but we're experiencing it as time. When I look back at memories they happen in a flash in my mind. They could have happened yesterday but they could have happened hundreds of years ago, it feels the same. Our minds are so frail. How do we know our spirits don't remember and we just recycle our lives and forget over and over and over. And do we trap ourselves inside time? If time is the beginning and the end, then what if time doesn't have a beginning or end, it wouldn't be moving but we perceive it as moving. So are we the ones moving it? And if we stop moving it do we stop moving through it and just experience it. A lot of the time I either feel consumed or I feel this empty bliss of almost knowing everything but also having nothing in knowing nothing at the same time.