Day 1 — Struggles & Wins (get real) 5 Struggles -I hyperfixate like a mother fucker. If I'm trying out something new and I really like it, no matter what it is, this new fixation will be all I think about. Usually, I get very competitive with myself, trying to learn more really quickly, until it no longer hits the same, and I give up. Happens with anything music, relationships, hobbies, anything. Makes me really unsure about what I wanna do for a career/”rest of my life.” -I am Procrastination’s bitch. Sometimes I just can't ever seem to allot the proper amount of time for anything. I feel like I am always doing everything at the last minute. I could be ready to leave 20 minutes before I go anywhere, and I'll still be late. -I am constantly comparing myself to others. Seeing other creators who started making content after me and have grown so much quicker makes me so mad. It shows me what is. So many are too afraid to ever try, and this is what holds them back from believing they can even chase their dreams in the first place. I have learned to love failing, and it will get me closer to my goals as long as I learn from each failure. So then I know I will live to my full potential and die knowing I kept learning and trying to seize every opportunity instead of “what if?”. Because I took action. possible, and the fact that I am not achieving that same level of success makes me think I am stupid. This makes me want to give up. I know I am smart enough and have the potential to succeed, and I feel dumb when others surpass me. -I smoke a fuck ton of cannabis (and love drugs). I love weed, and I feel it is something that I will always have in my life that usually improves my quality of life, but I am dependent on it at times for an escape from reality. I also find drugs to be super fascinating in a scientific and recreational sense. Drugs are something I love to talk about and think are something that crosses cultural norms, helps improve certain people's quality of life, and can be a very fun, fulfilling, and safe experience. But also super stigmatized and have tons of drawbacks like withdrawal addiction and risk for overdose or lacing. Talking about this passion could get me fired or perceived as lazy.