Thank you so much for being vulnerable and honest about this Holly! I wonder if this is why recently I have felt that feeling you describe 'wanting to jump out of my body, our of my skin'. I've been saying that to other people and I don't think they get what I mean, they just laugh and say that's weird. I can't explain it I just feel ugh and feel irritated by myself lol. I am really struggling to stay present and grounded even with all the breath work and meditation I have been doing! I feel irritable and very impatient, even little things are bothering me including myself! Is this feeling a side effect of the work, a sign of Acension and expansion?! I hadn't realised...

@Holly Doxey this is amazing!! Wow, that's incredible you are processing a trauma from 18 months old! It is surprising to think at such a young age you absorbed the energy around your parents divorce. I am so happy your method and your teachings are helping you too. That's what I love, is that you are learning,healing and growing beside us. You are the teacher but also the student. After all there's no thing as too much knowledge, we can always learn more and grow more, there is always another level to reach! It's great to hear it's making you feel lighter,happier and brighter. I would definitely love to hear about how exactly you go about processing trauma and emotions please. I know I have some to process and a lot of emotions to feel but I just don't know where to begin in processing these fully. I feel like I haven't fully processed things, some perhaps partially processed, some not at all. I can feel energy and emotions trapped uncomfortably in my body.

@Deana Conde Garza yes she has 💯💯

Thank you for sharing so openly and vulnerably Holly, I'm so sorry you have gone through so much grief but that's amazing that you have adopted a more accepting positive perspective on this now and are still able to connect but in an even deeper way and it led to you creating something so amazing! I am sure they are very proud of you. Yes please I would definitely like to learn how to understand and deepen my connection to my passed loved ones. Especially my Nan and Grandad, I had lost many aunties and uncles before and some of those did upset me, some I didn't know well enough but the loss of my grandad 7 years ago now who I was/am super close to felt like a wrecking ball had crashed into my heart and my world had fell apart. I was 14 and in school when I received the news. I've never cried so much in my life, every single day I sobbed. Then I lost pets so more wounds to my heart. Then last year as you will remember as I shared in this community my Nan passed and that was a complex grief because it involved forms of anticipatory grief too and the way she suddenly passed was traumatic. When she passed it brought up the not fully processed grief of my Grandad. Not only that trying to support my Mum through losing her parents too has been really hard. All while still trying to stay focused and afloat at uni. I am constantly looking and asking for signs and like you say sometimes I do wonder if it's it's just my longing and desperation making me see things. I don't know sometimes which signs are from them and which are from my angels/guides or other spirits either. I do think spirituality may have helped me reach a sense of acceptance quicker though. Like I say a bit like how you say your parents passing was your spiritual catalyst, my Nan's death last year was definitely a catalyst to accelerating and deepening my spiritual awakening to a whole new level. So I feel very blessed she has done that for me whether intentionally or not. It had started before she passed but it's only when she passed I started seeing signs regularly and different signs. I've had Mediumship readings since she passed so knowing she is okay and still close by and sounds very much like the character she was lol is a comfort. I don't find myself crying about it anymore but I do feel the sadness and longing still.

@Deana Conde Garza oh wow that's an amazing and very clever way of the universe bringing your awareness to your lack of Vitamin B12 in order to guide you to improve your health and wellbeing, yes definitely an essential vitamin which supports your overall health! That's great you took the first step to increase your B12 with a big nutritious breakfast

Saw 2:22 today :) - House of Swords