Things are hard right now, very tough with family stuff. I'm having increasing amount of doubt and hate towards my dreams of continuing my videography journey. No dopamine in my life, no social media, no vacation, no socialization, just simply helping those in need. Man these past month absolutely rocked my entire world you know. I thought I was “the shit”, “the man”, “the guy who could figure out his life at 17” I’ll be honest this entire year has been a bunch of ups and downs and right now I think is the biggest down period of the year. I’m not complaining though, I needed to be humbled, god took my business away from me and put me in the spot I needed to be in. That way I can realize how hard life really is and that this amazing lifestyle of a traveling videographer making videos for gyms doesn’t come so easily. I wish I was more grateful when I had everything, I wish I celebrated myself an God more. Now I have almost nothing, at least it seems. The fist true rock bottom of life is yet to come but I’m scared knowing I’m almost there. This community will stay, and I appreciate you guys. Just know that everything is fine, but I will be less active and less focused on the business since God has put very different priorities in front of me. Cherish the present moment, as it can get much worse. As someone who lived the "dream" just a few short months ago and had time to play tennis nearly every day, please cherish wherever you are now because YOUR journey is TRULY beautiful! Praise God, it will get better for you and me Amen!